Introducing a fine new range of rather jaunty hand made and hand painted porcelain and antiqued brass cufflinks…
Well, the sun shone brightly on the day of the market – possibly for the first time with any true gusto this spring, which could account for the slow trickle of art and craft lovers milling through…. However, there were lots of lovely make and do-ers there to meet and peruse. Here’s how my bike-powered stall was looking in early March… Soon might be trying to tout my wares at the Bristol Vintage Velo ride fete and perhaps even Colston Hall’s ‘Made in Bristol’ market later this month. Must admit I’d almost rather be taking part in the vintage dress-up country bike tour rather than trying to sell things!
Well, despite getting my camera all happy and serviced last week I didn’t take it out with me this weekend on my numerous adventures around the cube, stokes croft street fest, the lido, the dancing-round-your-living-room party, leigh woods, more lido and easton. So here is a picture of some pea soup i made recently – it has the tenuous connection of being the last time I picked wild garlic in the woods which i also did today… and its the kind of thing that people seem to expect from blogs. Utterly irrelevant.
Trying to sift out all i wrote today and make something sweet and beautiful out of it before my untidy mind and inbuilt nihilism make it feel ragged and tired and less worthwhile. Lone soul wandering I find myself on a word journey. Parcels of words seem to flock together in a way while cycling through woodlands that forces me stop and record them every time I come to a patch of sunlight in trees. Often I smile into the air to myself at thoughts I’m having; little impromptu incarnations of the now, recessed and looked at through the inner kaleidoscope. The world refracted through me – no-one else will ever know it.
Navel-gazey morning drinking coffee on the sunlit sofa turns into navel-gazey afternoon on two wheels; passing through woods and suburbs, by turns the rankling whiffs of sun-stewed car upholstery and the divine breaths of hot mayflower from the froth-blossomed hawthorn. I am happier than I was Thurs/Friday: I have met new people and old faces; bumped into nascent frineds; spent time with good friends who I see little and had unannounced visits from best soul mates. I need these little pots of interaction to stand me as fuel for the solitary days. Fill my mind with something to think about, turn over… the trouble is, I love to wallow in melancholia, touch everything with an elegiac mournfulness – and what better day to wallow than a sultry sunday afternoon? Its definitely some kind of perverse pleasure in life but i need to keep a hold of when to put the brakes on, when to stop my malicious psyche turning these things into sources of self doubt. I met someone on Friday whose collarbones proclaimed that ‘everything in life is a balloon’. I love this thought – it has so many uses. Think i need to internalise this idea as a possibility. Remember that everything can be filled with air and let go on the breeze and that its all brightly coloured and beautiful; shiny and transient. (ok, go no further missy, stop envisaging the sad balloons in the corner of the party that are half-deflated and a little baggy around the edges…)
I can’t make sense of my two sides, the creature of such terminally tragic thoughts walks hand in hand with the self-reliant entity wrapped up in my own impenetrable world which no-one sees. Sometimes I am both all at once. I wonder if it is the fear that no-one might ever discover what I really think that creates these vacuums of dystopia that I can disappear into for days….
Its all about nature at the moment. My senses are filled with hawthorn flowers. I wrote a list of things I like today, including finding slow worms, and an hour later found one curved in a flourish on the path in front of me. A big beetle hit me in the face as I cycled. A bumble bee was swept up as I biked into its trajectory. Kate and I decided that my flat is on the Maybug flight path due to all their unwanted clumsy buzzing traffic through the wide open windows. I look up from beside the fishing pond at Pill and all I can see are oak leaves in the most intense shades of luminous green and shadow black against a sunlit sky of pale eye-blue. The path along the river is all glaring yellow hedgerow flowers which I try and fail to pick with my left hand as i cycle, blue horizons, thick grasses and hazy rolling flats.
I have had the most fantastic of ear worms today, so good I sing along as I ride my bike too fast for a winding pedestrian sunday path. Air Algiers by Country Joe, ‘hopped on a plane from oakland new york, oakland new york, new york to marseilles, hopped on a plane oakland new york to marseilles, pigs on my trail, hey I got to make my get away. I got a one way ticket, I’m flying air algiers; think i’ll go to the Kasbah, cool it for a couple of years’ and Blackbird by the Beatles, ‘blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these broken wings* and learn to fly, you were only waiting for this moment to be free, black bird fly, into the light of a dark black night.’ (* i always wondered if the bird had broken wings already and was being told to go out and fly them anyway or if it was being given broken wings as a present…not sure which is the sadder picture in my head)
Chance and felicity smiled on me yesterday as I went several times to the door of the cube and rang the bell to retrieve my lost phone… i was met each time with the pitch black square letter box of silence until I was rescue by an unscheduled keyholder…would have been quite a different weekend if i had been incommunicado for the whole time. i shudder to think, and shudder to be so dependent on such a little slip of black plastic wizardry.
hurray…its here the new way of selling and buying and exchanging…and all via pedal power
… my porcelain buttons and brooches and things, appearing for one afternoon only during a small window of sunshine, at the island, bridewell
Sunday 18th April…. a lovely day really, sat in the intense sunshine next to my bike, printing and sewing stuff. Got up this morning and made bicycle-sized bunting to hang cards and buttons off around my bike, borrowed Rozzie’s bike basket and had a thoroughly vintage stall with all my new button stock etc. Didn’t sell a great deal but fun to hang out and make connections with other makers and hear about other markets and opportunities. All in all pretty nice and hopefully have some pics of it up soon.